Listening to At The Beginning With You by Donna Lewis and Richard Marx.

Yes, I chose this song to be in my wedding proposal, it's romantic and meaningful for a newlywed couple.

Other than about my proposal, I love this song,because whenever I sees the title, it reminds me of every single thing, every thing that has a starter point.

But now, every new comers in my life.. Are like a burden for me. I know I might say it wrong, but.. Things out here really arent as fun as I expected when I was in high school. That little bit things would cause your whole image drop like hell. It only needs two seconds for you to turn ugly. People will just turn around and motherfucker you like that. It's been half a year that I've been trying so hard to blend in this whole new life. Getting home late everyday, having classes on weekends, getting up early everyday including Saturday and Sunday, talking to people that you wouldnt know what will he/she do behind your back. This is creepy. Im not hoping for a complicated life, really. Friends, one by one coming in, one by one going out too. Showing your bloody hell face to me, what is this ? It's either, "there's no one you can trust to" or "it takes time for trust". But whatha bout personality ?? Some people are just like shit to you, but why are we being patient to it ? Cant I just say "hey dude, who you think you are talking to me like that. And please dont fuckin' show your face like that to me again." *tightslaptothatperson*

SIGH.

It's either "we have to cope with it.. Get used to it. Chill." or "Sorry, I dont like you *talktothehandpls*".

And great, one minute ago, I just notice that Ms C just noticed it. Too late. Everything is changing do you even know that ? Everyone is changing, everything will change. LUAN !

Now I started to like Ms M. She has did the best choice ever among us ! *saluteher*

I should .. One day.. SOON.

I dont need them.. Maybe. But not until that day comes, I will <3 them as usual :')